Thursday, February 6, 2014

I Had To


This time last year I was shaking...almost unable to play the notes I knew so well.  I had been told for years, by someone, that I could do nothing.

After years of that, you forget things that you know well.  You forget you can do things.  You forget God gave you gifts.

For years I had been my piano teacher's star student, played for Sunday School, played at school, played at church, entertained at dinners, and surprised friends who would sit and listen to me play for hours.  I was never nervous for those things.

So I had to, and my little ones wanted me to.

This year was different.  While I was still a little nervous, I was not as shaky.  With all those people sitting and staring at me, I did not feel as inadequate as I did a year ago.  I had the freedom to play.

And it was not for my glory, but for the One who brought me out of a deep, dark pit.  Who brought me back from the dead--out of the clutches of someone who tried to squeeze the life out of me.

Thank you, Jesus.

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Anonymous said...

YES, thank you Jesus! Praise His name! I am rejoicing with you! :D

FarmerGirl said...

Oh Emily! I am so glad to hear this! You are so precious! Tami Lewis

Blessed Homemaking said...

Thank you, God Fearing Mom :)

Blessed Homemaking said...

Thank you, Tami! Your profile is directing to a different blog--it's really strange!

Blessed Homemaking said...

Also I am so glad to see you again--I didn't know what happened to you.

Anonymous said...

So glad to hear you are bravely building up the confidence you lost.
I would love to hear you play : )

Anonymous said...

I just deactivated my fb due to some home issues I want to focus on.

Blessed Homemaking said...

OK, I'm glad you're still around in the blogging world.

Blessed Homemaking said...

That would be nice, Alexandra :)